Oh My God! One word: Amazing!

Positive pays… Stay positive.

So today I get a call. There is this dude with some of my papers. He went MIA in February this year. I thought he was dead! God forgive me for those bad thoughts. I had even told myself I would process other papers the minute I felt better. That’s my fault. I trust too much.

I thought he was dead because he told me he had some sort of a tumor in February and he no longer responded when I reached out to him. I didn’t know what to do given that I was also very sick. The last time we talked, he was not fine.

Apparently, he is around. I am so surprised!

I’ve always considered him to be a friend, but I am not going to be in the mood for anything else. Not now, not ever! God, help me. “Never say never” is really bad! Apparently, he doesn’t get that I just want to be a friend. Period. Men! Sigh…!

Maybe he decided to punish me for not getting him laid. Honestly, I had friend-zoned him. Or maybe I was wasting his time or maybe he thought talking to me made him sicker. I don’t know.

But he’s nice. At least to me. Anyway, I know he can be rough. He doesn’t joke around.

I remember one of my cousins was really lobbying for him… (Laughing hysterically)

Now, I don’t know whether to call him a dear friend. He has a lot of explaining to do. At least he owes me that. How do you disappear with my papers or whatever and give me such explanations? How will they help you or help whoever has them? Or maybe he didn’t know he had them and I am just assuming my own things?

How did he get them in the first place? You may ask …

Well, it’s a long story … let’s just leave it at that… but I never gave them to him with my hands. And I have them in my cloud so I guess it was not such a big deal to not have them with me. Bad mistake!!!

I have no idea what was wrong with me then! I hope that’s a gone part of my life never to crop up again! I certainly don’t miss it!!!

Or it is my fault? Only he can point his finger at me.

What did I do to deserve that silence? He could have even mailed my papers, if he just responded to my calls. Or he wanted me to learn the hard way? I am still baffled over this issue, but I will get an answer sooner than I think.

But I never should have trusted him in the first place. All this would have been avoided!

I am not divorcing him! We were never a thing! I thought bitter divorcees do that!

I wonder what he will say.

I don’t want to ambush him, but I don’t see another way out of this mess!

He’ll be so surprised to see me… I can’t wait to see the reaction on his face!

I hope he’ll want to explain himself. I don’t do fights very well. I’ll probably try to avoid it, but I’m sure someone won’t agree to let me go without my stuff.

Another friend is willing to help me retrieve anything of mine from him. He can be a tough enemy to have but really nice when you get to know him on a personal level. Seriously, nice is an understatement. Never assume people by their face value.

Donald Trump says that people should hold grudges. I guess we will never see things the same way and that’s okay. On that note, he never greets a certain ex-mayor of New York! Funny, but seriously bad advice!!!

Not everything that glitters is gold. On that note, do what you think.

I wouldn’t want to be in that gentleman’s bad books. But, I guess I can’t, unless I attack something precious to him. And, I can’t. Why would I want to do that? I doubt if anything can motivate me to harm him. He’s just a gentleman!  Even today. He’s not changed that.

No wonder he has so many friends while I’m practically at almost zero! Jeez!  I seriously wish I felt sorry! It is funny. He doesn’t think he has friends he can rely on but he has very many friends.

Come to think of it, he has always been very kind and good to me. I can’t say he has harmed me in any way. Why am I not dating this guy? This is a question that I was asked by somebody close.

Unless he asks in person, I won’t answer that question. I mean, a gentleman should be a gentleman. And we are good friends anyway. I have my reasons why we can’t be happy together. I know, it is hard to process. Not every good person is good for you. Why is life so complicated?

By the way, neither is he the kind of guy who is close to his family and an enemy of his colleagues nor an enemy of his family and a friend to colleagues. He’s close to everyone in his circles. He understands balance in a way I just don’t.

He is one person who taught me my value. I have him to thank. Too bad, life’s agenda is limiting! I guess that’s why I don’t do rules or boundaries too well. I have to break them somehow.  Not all rules, some rules. I am unlimited. What’s holding me back?

People are valuable. Very valuable!!!

Anyway, some things are really going fine. Thank God for that. I call it Faith.

Where there was hardship now it is just a smooth ride;

Where there was pain, there is love;

Where there was a desert, there is an oasis;

Where there was lack now there is an abundance;

Where there were tears, there is laughter;

Where the was joy, there is more joy;

But there is still something I do not get!!! People here also don’t get it. I hope I’ll get it soon.

Anyway, there is time for everything.

My time has just begun. (We call it positive thinking and any hurdles on the way become obstacles towards the greater good)

Never give up!!!