Do Not Underestimate God

English: Never underestşmate or overestimate (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

God can bring you low if He wants. That Spirit is no joke. People think they have it all figured out, but that is one big lie. You think Demons know it all. They know nothing. Seriously, after where I’ve trod, those things are blank. But they are tricky. You need to know them. I’m no expert and trust me when I say, I’m learning.

Getting trapped by the Devil is only part of the Story. And I didn’t say that you fall in church. Where did that come from anyway? Maybe its Doctrine or Creed or Dogma. I don’t want to fall down and know. Tell me. Why do some people think I don’t know God? Are you serious? Maybe I don’t act like it, but I do know Him. That’s part and parcel of my life. And I won’t change it. I even can’t.

Of trappings. I  have experienced it and oh that guy feels so bad when he knows that He can’t touch this (okay, my heart). You bring all kinds of temptations. I can see them from afar. Thank God. But too bad people only see the smoke and not the fire. Know it alls. The war is the real deal. Funny how I get to enjoy myself sometimes. That’s just weird. I said, sometimes not all times. Most times I’m down in the dumps.

Too bad I have demons that won’t let me go. Would you believe me if I told you I know why? It looks normal, but it’s really not. I don’t know if I’ll be able to live with myself after this confession. I’m terrified. If you see me get into a fight with the Devil, know I don't agree entirely with what he wants. That I know. Otherwise, why are you fighting me? Or maybe it is God. Huh! Awesome.

Seriously your fights are hurting me. But I’m flattered.

I have noticed a weird pattern in my life and I’m going to alter it this time. Well, maybe…

Seriously, why can’t I speak Swahili? I’d be hilarious. I know myself so bad it hurts. If you think this is funny, you haven’t heard me become funny in my own mother tongue. People try to bring something out to come across as hilarious, but it’s more hilarious in their tongue.

 I’ve heard people tell their tales and I like to believe them, but if I don’t, then you are lying. We’ll this may not be necessarily true for everyone, but I know when you are lying. Maybe I’m telepathic and I don’t know it. But I have realized it gets stronger when I am close to God. Right now I’m joking at best. But it’s so damn good I can’t let go. This freedom (read slavery) looks amazing. Well, I can. I believe that all things are possible to them that believe.

You know I have to be nice to people with God. I don’t want to. I really don’t. I’m not going to pretend that human beings are awesome. They are really not. A few are. I admit that. I do give credit where it is due. Seriously, do not cross me and we will be friends. But the choice is yours. We don’t have to know each other at all. But if I know you, the rule applies. This rule applies to almost everyone in my life. A few have managed to cross me and gotten away with it, but try crossing me again. I dare you. I do not forgive easily. My human nature can’t allow it.

And don’t be a coward. Attack me when I’m up and about, handling my own business. Not when I’m not at my best. Nobody likes cowardice unless you are a coward.

My ex should be here. He’d tell me I am the opposite of what I write. Oh! Why did you have to lie. Lies on top of lies? You never thought you’d be caught one day?  You were really one in 7 billion. You hurt me so bad. Jesus!!! Why? I just let it go. I’m not gonna fight with you. I’ll never do it because our relationship is over. Time to fight another one. Relationships that don’t have fights are rare or someone is being a doormat!!! I know a good one that ended in death for one. Sad, huh? Anyway, I said what I said and that’s that. Stop being depressed. Move on. That was a passing storm and it’s over. Hell, I’m not depressed. I should be but I’m not. I honestly don’t get your depression. It doesn’t make me happy, but it is uncalled for.

The sad bit is that you only have 2 choices. The good and the bad. I’m in the middle right now and that’s not a choice because there are two. Do you know which side I’ll end up on? And don’t factor in people; they don’t matter when I choose. Why I’m I alive now? This is the end of the end. Don’t get me wrong. I didn’t say the world is ending. Not really. It’s not. But you are facing something worse than the gallows. Too bad I have to explain that to you. Do your research please.

Being in the middle will only end in the “bad” group. I don’t want that, but I sincerely have no choice in the matter. This is so bad!!! I wish I was Moses.

I’m not bitter at you. Not really. If anything, my stresses are gotten rid off elsewhere not on people. But I do stand for what I believe to be true. And if you are with me, you’ll have to be responsible for your actions. Why would I be bitter at you? If anything, you are just being a good audience and I like that. Someone told me I am raw and blunt. I didn’t disagree because it is true. I’m supposed to be diplomatic. We’ll I’m trying so hard. Diplomacy is not my strong suit or maybe it is? It has never been if I can recall stuff. I was born aggressive not assertive and my human nature does not want me to be diplomatic in any way. Unfortunately, this world wants assertive. I have noticed aggressive terrifies them.

Diplomacy is the ability to insult you without you noticing it. I see diplomatic people being abused without them noticing it and I laugh. This is when you should apply the “I don’t care attitude.”Otherwise words will hurt you and you will retaliate. Unfortunately, retaliating doesn’t produce desired results. I will insult you and leave you to your own devices. My bluntness is my weakness. I admire diplomacy.

I hope to choose someday and whichever side I end up on, I wish you well. If you won’t choose, the choice has been made by your actions. Keep living in denial. I know it is awesome for now.

Need I tell you you’ll pay for it? And you won’t like it.