Reaching Out to You People

(Do not confuse this picture with that of Nokia. But, the hands are both big so ...)

You know, it really feels good to know that you are loved. Pastor was right. And not just by one person, many! This competition is so good I bet many of you know what I am talking about. I am just finding out! I am so serious!

But, those people who say love makes the world go round were a bit overenthusiastic. Anyway, knock yourself out if you think it does. No one’s stopping you.

But, looking back, I think I’ve had abounding grace. The last few years have not been easy. But, somehow, I have managed. Don’t ask me how! I seriously don’t know! But, now that I know this, I think it is time I made few changes in my life. Of course, positive ones.

First, I need you to not want to know the changes. They are subtle but they have such a ripple effect it astounds me. Your need to know is quizzical. Ask yourself, why? What for?

I need to accommodate people in my life and this means that I have to put up with a lot of crap! I need grace for this because I am a no-nonsense type of person and I do not mince words when I am not happy. Well, I’ve just found out that I should tolerate quirks. All of them: the good, the bad and the ugly. I have decided that I won’t say anything. I will post it on my blog and I won’t mention names, as usual.

If this sounds like a raw deal, remember I have fought monsters. (Not actual monsters. Do they even exist?) Take it or leave it.

I cannot swallow crap just because I will hurt your feelings and bottle mine up. And guess what? My blog allows me that luxury. Luxury of being me. A free soul. I am not a second class citizen and I will not allow anyone to treat me like so. I have to let out smoke somewhere. No, I don’t smoke at all. If you do, please keep me out of your little habit. I have my own to deal with.  When I grow tired dealing with the burn unit, I will shut down this blog. Actually no! I will only shut down this blog if I die and I have time to shut it down. Will I miss it? Maybe, maybe not! Ask me then! I most certainly will have an answer.

Death, I have realized is part of human life. I do not fear it. It comes when it wants, so it is not like you have plans. Even the assurance people know that.  It is just that I want to die in my sleep. I don’t want a dramatic exit. I mean, what for? It is the drama that makes the remaining live people to go mental. Those people that exit without being melodramatic are just the best.

So, if my words cut your soul, I mean well and I just happened to give you a glimpse of the battlefield which is on my mind. By the way, I am not exempted from these words. I toe the line, if I cross it. I also want to be better than what I am so, rejoice. We are in the boat together!

I wish I can say I obey all rules. I don’t. But, I camouflage my rule breaking until it looks good. I will do my best to avoid any court of law from holding me in contempt. But, my flaws are many. Counting them is like counting sand on the beach. But, I fear hurting those close to me. And that is why; I will apologize the minute you complain. If you don’t like apologies, too bad. Remember you are not God.

An apology is the best I can offer. Take it, or leave it. It’s a raw deal (according to some. I may not agree. Let’s just agree to disagree) but I just have to deal you because I believe in the Lord’s Prayer.

Away with the self conscious crap, it is very good to believe in you. The normal you. I have seen it happen in my life (This is a very good example). If you are yet to see it in yours, wait for it. Impatient as you are, wait.

You know what is so good here, I have no idea what is happening to you and I know this will impact on you positively. I am so pleased with myself right now. At least I do not sound like I have put a target on your back. I really haven’t.

I won’t gain anything by doing away with you. If there is nothing to gain, I still want you to read my thoughts. It is not about gains!

So, what are you waiting for? Be the best that you can be with or without other people interfering. I included.

Who cares what they think anyway? But, even with the don’t-care attitude, choose to be considerate. Consideration is very important. For real!

Remember what I reported about real freedom? If you think you are free and you do not consider others, you lie to yourself.

I don’t mean you consider abnormality. That belongs in a psychiatry ward or room! At this stage, I’d highly recommend brain usage. I am sure everyone has one. Totally sure.

Unless, there is a medical miracle I am yet to come across.