Mulling about 2014: Thank God the Year is almost over!

Now, as 2014 ends, let me expose some things that came to light after my praise almost got me trapped. Remember when I talked so well of a certain Muslim guy called Mohammed? Shock!

You know, these are some of the reasons I cannot change religions. I mean, what I have is precious. Let me stay being foul with my one and only love. At least I have breathing space! If I felt uncomfortable here, I would have moved a long time ago.

This brings a certain pattern into light. Good always wins in the end. Bad is always exposed, no matter how hard we try to hide it.

Now, let me cut to the chase. Apparently, the nice talker has abandoned his one wife (maybe he has side dishes. I do not doubt even for a second that he does!) You know, it is hard to hide certain characters. (I do not mean numbers or letters!)

I have proof but let that one lie. Actually, because people have their mistakes (me included), let’s count this one as a major flaw in Mohammed’s character.

Apparently, the salary he gets all goes to booze. Wow! What an addiction! I know how addictive booze is. I just pray I never fall prey to its claws. If you take things literally, please know that this piece is not for you.

Of course people change. Let me give him that allowance but do not think for a second that I will be a friend. From now on, formalities are in order. I guess that’s why his Christian friend was so badly influenced. I mean, that guy was no light beam. Now, I know why. Birds of a feather flock together.

Show me your friends and I will show you your character. It is time I started sorting out those I call friends. But the ones, I praised are going nowhere. Time has tried and tested them. They always mean well.

This is just the beginning. Let me lie still and wait.

But, social sites can mislead. It calls enemies, friends. Just because someone has so many friends means nothing. In real life, those so called friends become enemies. But, if the feeling is good, indulge. Do not unfriend people because of me. Have your own standing please.

It is worth standing for something. And standing firm.

Experience is truly the best teacher…

As for the guy I mentioned earlier, I won’t dwell there. What for? The point is he’s exposed for what he really is.

I told you, year ends are fun for me. Totally worth waiting for!

Things, I never knew are exposed. Stuff happens and bad guys are shown as they are!

Now, I talked of being rejected. You know, I can get all personal and stuff but it is not worth it. If someone is stupid enough to let you go, you let them.

You do not experiment with the one. Unless, you think you can get away with it. And, you can’t! But, if you find that someone can dare do this, know that you dodged a bullet. A real bullet. This is no consolation. It is a fact.

Dating babies (or toddlers! Ha!) Is just a sad affair! Babies and toddlers in relationships not actual babies and toddlers. I told you not to take things literally! Oh! The humanity!

It never ends well. There has got to be some level of maturity for such special relationships to survive. Unfortunately, this maturity is missing. Oh, go ahead and justify your reasons. I choose to believe what I will. That’s the beauty of free will.

Your value never decreases because someone failed to see it. You know what the best part is? Your value always shows in the end.

So forget about people searching for pebbles. Know that you are a real diamond.And forget about people who are not for real. They will just hurt you in your quest for love.

You know, the person who said opportunity knocks once in a man’s lifetime was not wrong. It does knock once. As for second chances, I gave it a chance, now I have nothing to regret.

You know, if your tastes are exotic, nothing indigenous will work for you. It is not fair to play around with indigenous meals then think you have the pleasure of spitting out what you willingly put in your mouth. But, no one’s stopping you. A painful lesson waits afterwards.

By all means, indulge!

Oh! Please remember I told you so.

The replacement I have the pleasure of indulging with is a God sent. It is a fool proof package that I never asked for … lucky me…

But, the battle was a tough one. Probably the toughest I have had to endure. Which lasted years …

You know, the tougher the battle, the sweeter the rewards.

After a storm, comes the sunshine. How true! You know, even the storm runs out of rain.

Reaching Out to You People

(Do not confuse this picture with that of Nokia. But, the hands are both big so ...)

You know, it really feels good to know that you are loved. Pastor was right. And not just by one person, many! This competition is so good I bet many of you know what I am talking about. I am just finding out! I am so serious!

But, those people who say love makes the world go round were a bit overenthusiastic. Anyway, knock yourself out if you think it does. No one’s stopping you.

But, looking back, I think I’ve had abounding grace. The last few years have not been easy. But, somehow, I have managed. Don’t ask me how! I seriously don’t know! But, now that I know this, I think it is time I made few changes in my life. Of course, positive ones.

First, I need you to not want to know the changes. They are subtle but they have such a ripple effect it astounds me. Your need to know is quizzical. Ask yourself, why? What for?

I need to accommodate people in my life and this means that I have to put up with a lot of crap! I need grace for this because I am a no-nonsense type of person and I do not mince words when I am not happy. Well, I’ve just found out that I should tolerate quirks. All of them: the good, the bad and the ugly. I have decided that I won’t say anything. I will post it on my blog and I won’t mention names, as usual.

If this sounds like a raw deal, remember I have fought monsters. (Not actual monsters. Do they even exist?) Take it or leave it.

I cannot swallow crap just because I will hurt your feelings and bottle mine up. And guess what? My blog allows me that luxury. Luxury of being me. A free soul. I am not a second class citizen and I will not allow anyone to treat me like so. I have to let out smoke somewhere. No, I don’t smoke at all. If you do, please keep me out of your little habit. I have my own to deal with.  When I grow tired dealing with the burn unit, I will shut down this blog. Actually no! I will only shut down this blog if I die and I have time to shut it down. Will I miss it? Maybe, maybe not! Ask me then! I most certainly will have an answer.

Death, I have realized is part of human life. I do not fear it. It comes when it wants, so it is not like you have plans. Even the assurance people know that.  It is just that I want to die in my sleep. I don’t want a dramatic exit. I mean, what for? It is the drama that makes the remaining live people to go mental. Those people that exit without being melodramatic are just the best.

So, if my words cut your soul, I mean well and I just happened to give you a glimpse of the battlefield which is on my mind. By the way, I am not exempted from these words. I toe the line, if I cross it. I also want to be better than what I am so, rejoice. We are in the boat together!

I wish I can say I obey all rules. I don’t. But, I camouflage my rule breaking until it looks good. I will do my best to avoid any court of law from holding me in contempt. But, my flaws are many. Counting them is like counting sand on the beach. But, I fear hurting those close to me. And that is why; I will apologize the minute you complain. If you don’t like apologies, too bad. Remember you are not God.

An apology is the best I can offer. Take it, or leave it. It’s a raw deal (according to some. I may not agree. Let’s just agree to disagree) but I just have to deal you because I believe in the Lord’s Prayer.

Away with the self conscious crap, it is very good to believe in you. The normal you. I have seen it happen in my life (This is a very good example). If you are yet to see it in yours, wait for it. Impatient as you are, wait.

You know what is so good here, I have no idea what is happening to you and I know this will impact on you positively. I am so pleased with myself right now. At least I do not sound like I have put a target on your back. I really haven’t.

I won’t gain anything by doing away with you. If there is nothing to gain, I still want you to read my thoughts. It is not about gains!

So, what are you waiting for? Be the best that you can be with or without other people interfering. I included.

Who cares what they think anyway? But, even with the don’t-care attitude, choose to be considerate. Consideration is very important. For real!

Remember what I reported about real freedom? If you think you are free and you do not consider others, you lie to yourself.

I don’t mean you consider abnormality. That belongs in a psychiatry ward or room! At this stage, I’d highly recommend brain usage. I am sure everyone has one. Totally sure.

Unless, there is a medical miracle I am yet to come across.

Turn Any Negative into A Positive …

You know, after recent events, I have realized that any negative can be turned into a positive. Yeah, even death. I know, I sound insane. This is not a good thing to say to anyone who has been affected by death. Give it time to heal and then launch your positivity thing. If you do this too soon, you will be declared mental alone.  Let’s be like me here for a while. Yeah, hurt is there but ask yourself, how do you benefit positively?

You know, negative stuff is there to make you grow. You become better at decision making, organizational skills, discipline, e.t.c. If negative stuff makes you weak, you are weak indeed. You should not let some things break you. If they do, pick yourself up and move on. The beauty of life is that your problems become stepping stones if you let them. If you don’t, you will sink so deep, no one is going to be able to pull you out. I am imagining, sinking into mud. I say pull because push would mean whoever is pushing you is deep in the mud. Try surviving in mud without breathing we see how long you can hold your breath. Breathe, if you deem yourself macho.

You know, negativity is like mud. You need to rid yourself of it before you can become acceptable again. Otherwise you will just leave undesirable footprints and handprints wherever you go. If you want to be another famous person after Hitler, try negativity. You will be hated and not easily forgotten. We can barely forget Hitler. Can we? In the end, what did he gain?

I was told that someone died because a cup of water was poured on him. My source is a credible one. I just don’t feel like sharing it. No more personal stuff. If I share my source, then I will break the “personal” rule.  

You know, Hitler smiled after that guy died! He never smiled. Yeah, that is how mean this guy was. But, I also think there can’t be more of a coward! Jesus!  How do you die from a cup of water? Or maybe it was the fright of a lifetime to meet Hitler. Hitler thrived by making himself appear like a god. Even gods don’t act like that. Demons and the devil can, so I guess it is safe to say Hitler was the devil incarnate.

I know someone who thinks Hitler was a good man. I don’t get it. I don’t think I can. How?

So next time you want to call someone mean, think Hitler.

So your calling me mean is a joke of the century. I am adorable just blunt like something else. I have my good and bad aspects. I doubt that Hitler had any good in him. Anyway, let’s go back to the topic.

Now, there is something going on in the country. It is not pretty. Let me repeat my Pastor’s words: You have a responsibility towards society. That is freedom. I agree. Freedom is not doing what you feel like.

Society is your friend and enemy. Both. Yeah, they will laugh with you when you need to laugh like weddings. The society will cry with you in funerals. It will strip you naked without mercy in Nairobi.

My friend also chipped in: I do not defecate along Thika road just because there is freedom. I know what responsible is. I agree. Totally positive.

But because we are turning negatives to positives, Lesson learned: worldly men really love to look at naked women then undress them in the name of shame yet they lust like a nonsense and don’t think those ladies pay a price! It is positive to look for the right things in the right place. Wolf whistles because of your dress being deemed too short will just make you be stripped in public in some places. Demonstrating in hideous clothing doesn’t make it any better. Try harder and find a solution.

You know what comes to mind? Slum dog millionaire!

FYI

Now, I gave you people an example of defying laws. This is rare according to studies (I have no idea which studies we are talking about. I overheard with many witnesses) but I am about to defy a kind of a law to my advantage. Don’t defy the law. You will be arrested. I told you I always choose the winning side. That’s a fact for me. Call me names. I don’t care. I come first in my world. I may not star in your world but I really wish that mattered. Maybe I’d sigh. It is very okay to not feature in everyone’s story. I mean, who does anyway?

You know, you have to have enemies so that you know that you stand for something. If you are just sailing through unopposed, you are not serious. You have to have enemies. You also have to have friends. Both are good.

(Yeah ... I don't think an enemy photo is worth it ... so I think I'll just pass)

If you lack friends, oh boy! These genuine souls hold you when you are down, they are the people who are there for you when you think you’ve got the world on your shoulders. And that’s not all; these people are there not to be walked all over by your dirty feet but to be given your much needed company, support and time. Enjoy the good times with them. Face challenges with them. If you run away, you are a coward!

I hear they live longer. Who cares? Give me brevity anytime.

You have to defy a few laws in order to be unique. If you like mediocre, suit yourself. I won’t motivate you in any, way. Just do your thing. But know that I am not following that beaten path. I’d rather create mine. It is harder but more rewarding. For me, mediocre sucks big time!

Only someone who has beaten one will get what I mean. I think we share a lot in common with the path beaters. Those who just sail through deserve other sailors. No pun intended.

Now, that brings me to an unforeseen quagmire. What to do? Not to worry, I think I have a solution somewhere. I just have to find it first. I think I know what to do but, too bad I have to break hearts in the process.

I love the way I can express myself freely without worrying that I may not be paid (You know, you have to please your crowd when it comes to payment); you will judge me by my words; whatever else that fits here, fit it …

There is no greater joy than fulfilling purpose. Quite frankly, the people who say they have no joy in their lives are missing something. That something is called purpose. Look for it. It is that important in your life. Onlookers are many. Ignore them. They are just idle and you can never achieve anything by being idle. Strive to be active even when you don’t see immediate results. You will see them soon.

I just love this webpage. I think it is the best thing to ever happen to me on the internet.

I’d be lying if I said life!

Peace of Mind …

Let me tell you, it is very easy to get peace of mind. Sometimes we may stray but the trick is to never let your peace be held by someone. I know parents are wondering if I am insane. Keep wondering, you are wasting time. Dare to be different. It is really freeing. You know, I hear that these bonds of family are so strong they may go against my second sentence.

I am not there yet and no! I don’t purport to get anything but yes; you can separate peace of mind with other stumbling blocks you may find on life’s path. Of course there must be stumbling blocks. I mean, who do you think you are? Welcome to planet earth. Fyi, even small kids overcome nightmares so stop whining and appreciate that you are alive and able to conquer stumbling blocks. If you keep falling on purpose, then you have yourself to blame.

You may think nightmares are just stupid but try telling that to a child…

 

Anyway, enough about kids let us concentrate on ourselves first. You know; if you do not love yourself, don’t think you can love anybody. And no! I never told you to be selfish. There is love for you and there is selfish. These two terms may confuse but somehow, you will know the difference. Let me not get in your way.

I’ve heard that love makes the world go round. I wonder at that statement. I am still wondering. Whether there is love or not, the earth will rotate on its own axis. Or maybe God is love so because He made the earth … There are so many ways to look at this statement, I don’t know which the truth is anymore. Or maybe, there are many truths. Imagine! That has not taken away my peace of mind. I am okay. I think peace of mind is just ignoring the useless things in life(I can’t begin to tell you how many things are useless. They are just too many) and embracing what you cannot do without (anything that does not go well with you and you cannot deal with, you can do without). You can shun anything that makes you what you are not. It is very possible.

I used to be selfish. Now, I just love me. Yeah, people change. You just have to have faith in humanity. Even the worst souls can shock you. But, separate the pretenders from the real deal. Not everyone is genuine. Some just want to use you. Trust me on this one. Actually, no! Don’t trust me, trust your instincts. Or guts, or inner guidance or whatever fancy name you use for that sixth sense. I do not want to downplay the importance of the other five senses but the sixth is never wrong.

You know, the mind is an intricate thing. Let me call it so because it is not an organ, it is not tangible, it is just another strange thing we have to live with. Psychologists may disagree. I wish it mattered. I believe that the first step to peace of mind is to forgive you. Failure to do so will just make you go mental.

Then if you want to be totally free, ask for forgiveness from the party you harmed. If not, try forgetting. Good luck on that one. If you harmed a dead party, I don’t know what to tell you. Seek professional help.

I am done typing what I have just been thinking.