You know, to most, this applies ...
Now, I have one resolution to make. This is serious. I am not joking. I left Christ. I am going back. No excuses.
This time, the decision is mine. Last time, I was forced and that did not go down well with me. That was never my decision. My friends had a bad time. I don't need to be told to know this. I am amazed I actually had friends. This time, it is going to be different. That's a promise. But, I am not tying you here. It is perfectly okay if you choose to leave. No hard feelings. I have realized that real people for you, stick around. And whatever company you lose, you get hundreds more. So, adios. Seriously, no hard feelings.
You may have noticed, I can really break rules. Not bend, break! That stops now.
There may have been a little influence but I am safe and happy there. And going by Desiderata, I want to be at peace with God. While outside there is insane freedom, like no boundaries whatsoever and too much justification, I want what I once had. I have suffered enough! While I am thankful for friends, they do not understand what I am going through. Sincerely, they never will.
I lost my salvation and I want it back.
I know it is not too late. And then again, if you want something not so mediocre, you have to sacrifice a lot. I intend to do just that. I will never settle for mediocre again. So help me God.
The world is just full of crap. There is so much to handle and it is like new things keep appearing to keep you rooted there. Funny. The more you stay there, the more you don't want to leave. And there is nothing good, ever! All the good things are from God.
I have fought battles that can kill most. It is time I got some help from above. I can't do this anymore. I am just tired and all the things that appealed to me have lost taste, flavor, meaning e.t.c. in my life. Let those who can indulge do so. I am fed up.
Enough is enough.
Oh, temptations will be there but I think I can deal with those. Where I am weak, God will fight for me.
If you are not part of the flock, do not think for one second I want anything to do with you. Honestly, two cannot walk together unless they be agreed. I know that from experience. It is also in the Bible.
And the promise of years unmatched by those down below, are too good to ignore. I think I will take my chances. Hell or heaven, I don't care. I have thrown caution to the wind... This is my only resolution for 2015. Well, I guess 2014 ended on a positive note after a serious paradigm shift.
I am not going to bend to anybody's will if it is not for me but against me ... watch me.
The problem here is that Christians differ over many issues and I don't know what to believe anymore. Since this is a crossroads of some sort, I have made up my mind that the salvation is mine. Whatever relationship I have is between God and I. And not God, you and I. So, the choice is mine. End of story.
I think this video pretty tells it all: www.youtube.com/watch?v=VtotCj7ovkU
